Tag Archives: Standing

Aug 9 2011

Starting From Forgiveness

5 Kids and 10 years later, I would be lying if I told you it was or has been easy to move on.  Yes, I forgave.  I let go of all the bitterness and gave the pain over to the Lord to heal.  But does that erase the memory or the thoughts of what could have been?  He went his way, I went mine.  Separated by an entire state, we have no interaction, just phone calls to check on the kids.  When he got out of line, I wouldn’t answer, but avoidance does not equal deliverance.

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places, EPH 6:12

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood…it is not the physical presence or the phone calls that create the problem.  I can avoid a ringing phone and distance can minimize the physical contact but only deliverance can free one of the spirit that seeks to kill, steal and destroy.  Deliverance deals with the principalities, powers, spirits, etc.  So when I encounter that which I was avoiding and haven’t been delivered from that spirit, I can be overtaken by that spirit.

Paul said, I must die daily (1 Corinthians 15:31) I must stay in prayer, continue in my word and rebuke the flesh that desires to sin.  I am trusting and believing God for my deliverance, not wavering but after doing all that I can, I will STAND.

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May 19 2011

Do You Really Know Me…

“Remember the former things of old: for I am God, and there is none else; I am God, and there is none like me, Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure:” Isaiah 46:9

As I am approaching a year now that I have been blogging; a year that I spent writing Sunday Mourning; a year spent developing Mother 2 Mother, I ask myself, do those that are following my blog, leaving comments, tweeting me or liking my facebook statuses, know me.

What you see is what you get, but how I arrived at this point, has definitely been a journey; a journey of pain, at times feelings of defeat and to say the least full of trials. You see that mother that some tweet about or are even bold enough to write about on your facebook statuses, “the welfare mama”, that’s been me. In a blink of an eye, I went from making $50k a year, to one-third of that. With the same bills to pay and children to feed. I was told that its a privilege to have a car, that I should consider moving from my residence to a lower income part of town, the whole nine. At times, I thought I would lose my mind, but I knew it was a greater purpose for all the pain. I had to actually walk through the sufferings of those that my heart yearns to serve. I had to understand the mindset, the power of someone telling you “you can’t” when you know you can. I had to live through it and it was only by the grace of God that my mind has been kept. We can all say what we would do, but I’ve shown you what can be done and what I will continue to do through faith.

Yesterday I was contacted to assist a mother who had just relocated to Las Vegas, NV and had been sleeping in her car at night. With no hesitation, I was on it, making phone calls, brainstorming what needed to be done. Then I thought about the scripture in the Bible of the woman who used her last to prepare a meal. If my last is giving up a bed in my home, then by all means I’m giving it. I have to be the change that I desire to see. My circumstances haven’t changed much from last year, but my faith has definitely increased. I know that there is a blessing with my name on it. Everything that God has placed on my heart, every vision, dream, project, program, etc. will come to pass.

I’m speaking for organizations that I never knew existed until now. I’m more focused on my relationship with God than I have ever been before “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33 I’m conducting interviews about “little old me”. The comments and the emails that I receive about this blog are amazing and to God be the Glory.

This journey began with me dealing with 3 areas in my life: (1) Strongholds; (2) Surrendering; (3) Transparency. I knew this day would come but I also knew that someone would need to hear/read this. You can make it, keep your head up, square your shoulders and keep going. God will keep you in perfect peace. He has never left me. My soul is richer than ever and I am making room for my blessings.

It is ironic that on tonight while on Dr Juanita Bynum’s 40 day consecration on the Threshing Floor, she spoke a word, FINAL. She spoke to get ready. I knew that this would be part of my testimony but I wasn’t prepared to share it until things had completely changed. But I know its on the way. “For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” Romans 8:18

Mar 4 2011

Day 8 – What’s Next

What’s next? Truthfully, I don’t know, but one thing is for certain my steps have been ordered. When I set out on this journey, I was letting go of a lot of things that had been holding me back. I vowed to be obedient to what God had for me to do, no matter how strange or difficult it seemed at the time. March 3, 2010 changed my life in more ways than one. I can’t believe it has been an entire year. Some counted me out, some probably even thought I would stay down, but still by the grace of God I am rising.

Throughout this entire journey, patience has been the key. Though a year seems like a long time, I have learned that being in the wrong state of mind can make it seem even longer. My mind has been renewed. Yesterday is gone, today at this very moment is what matters and I have learned to make the most of each moment that God allows for me. I have shared my struggles, my vision and my purpose. I can’t wait to share with you how it all comes together. The countdown has officially started!!!

Jan 13 2011

Nothing New Under the Son

History always has a way of repeating itself. Is it by chance or for a Divine Purpose? I am not one to stay up to speed on much of the news, politics, economy, etc. However, one thing I do pay a lot of attention to are the things that motivate others. I guess you could say, I am a “people watcher”.

It seems like “The American Dream” and the pursuit of obtaining that reality has been a consistent motivator for generations. We have fought to climb the ladder, killed for the sake of limiting someone’s dream and even sold each other when we couldn’t realize or fathom that we were all created out of the likeness and image of one greater power. Perhaps, “The American Dream” had become the religion that we all longed to become members of even though we had been given the right to “Religious Freedom”.

We took the backseat on issues, such as prayer in schools, the legalization of same-sex marriages and even the right for an innocent life to be taken, we called that Pro-choice. If we can understand that most of these changes actually transpired because of the fight of an individual that spread their message, as we were instructed to do, “Go ye therefore…”, then we can start to understand how we became indoctrinated and included on a roll sheet that we were never purposed to follow.

So why now has our economy crashed, unemployment levels on the rise, wars breaking out and an entire shift, that I feel, taken place? One word, in my mind, restoration. We are seeing how greed, self-centeredness, pride, arrogance and deceit can lead to the fall of any man. Even the prodigal son had to return back home, before he could be cleaned up and restored back into his rightful place.

Are you in position? Naturally, the family is going to be the necessary and fundamental aspect of the foundation that first needs to be restored. We went from one parent working homes, to two parent working homes and now we are lucky if either parent is working. Our villages have been ambushed and there is no longer any accountability. I am my brothers keeper. However, a family that does not submit to God, will soon fall victim to the religion of “The American Dream” and repeat the cycle that we are preparing to recover from. Who will take the lead in this transformation? It seems simple right, the Church. I have recoginized that I am the church, you are the church, WE ARE THE CHURCH. So what are we going to do? Influence the change that we were suppose to influence, through obedience, deligence, perserverance, faith, power and love. Be the change that God called you to be. He said if I be lifted up, I would draw all men unto me. Whatever thy hand findeth to do, do it.

I am ready for change. Restoration is here. The wealth of the world is laid up for the righteous. If Moses had been following after “The American Dream”, the children of Egypt would still be in bondage. Well, we have led and left an entire generation back into Egypt and in order to be delivered over into the land of milk and honey, we must pull them out one at a time. Yes, we are going to go up against Pharoah’s army(The government). You see because of the children of Egypts bondage, Pharoah’s government gained wealth in spite of the corruption. However, we can see right now there have been some plagues to hit. Now is the time to put on the whole armour and get prepared for battle. I am taking back what is rightfully mine.

Jan 6 2011

How He speaks to me

In the midst of the silence, I heard your voice.
You whispered in my ear and it ministered to my soul.
You let me know I was never alone and you are here because I can’t do it on my own.
In the midst of the silence you healed the pain. You cleared my eyes to see through the rain.

Whisper Lord I hear you clear,
Whisper Lord as I draw near,
I just need a word.
I can hear it in a whisper because you are my Lord.

For the whisper has become words and those words are now a song.

It’s the song that you’ve given me when I don’t know which way to go.
It’s the song I sing on the inside in the depths of my soul.
You’ve spoken to my heart and now life will never be the same.
All it took was a whisper and you calling me by name.

Whisper Lord I hear you clear,
Whisper Lord as I draw near,
I just need a word.
I can hear it in a whisper because you are my Lord.

For the whisper has become words and those words are now a song.

Lord I feel your presence and I’m walking in your will.
I believe what you have spoken while I was standing still.
Lord the whisper was all I needed.
You spoke a new life in me.
For in you I found life’s purpose
and I am walking into my destiny.

Whisper Lord I hear you clear,
Whisper Lord as I draw near,
I just need a word.
I can hear it in a whisper because you are my Lord.